My Big Decision

Published March 15, 2012 by Jasmine

After much deliberation I have decided to end my law practice as a solo practitioner. This does not mean that I no longer want to be an attorney, just not a solo attorney. I have been struggling with this over the last year, and the decision is bittersweet. It makes me a little sad because I am giving up the one thing that was truly mine. At the same time, I feel that a huge weight has been lifted off me now that a decision has been made. I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I ended up where I needed to be. I am excited about the future, the possibilities and potential that it holds.

I don’t know what the future holds. I do know that I want to be doing something that gets me so fired up that I can’t wait to jump out of bed in the morning, excited to take on the day. Although I have not given up on being a practicing attorney, I think I have finally come to terms with the fact that it is okay if I am not a practicing attorney. A law degree can take you in so many directions. I think I have been holding myself back by believing the preconceived notion that if I wasn’t a practicing attorney then law school was a waste. I also felt like I would be letting everyone down who believed in me. Somehow at 3:00 a.m. this morning I realized the only person I need to worry about is me. AM I HAPPY? I wasn’t happy, and as soon as I made that decision I was excited and happy. Excited that I could finally move on, and find my true passion and place in this world. Happy that I could let go, and know that it would be okay, that I am not a failure.

I am excited to spend some time revamping my resume, and then showing the world what they have been missing! I have been thinking of possibly becoming POST certified as my undergraduate degree is a B.A. in Criminal Justice…I wanted to be a police officer. I have a potential lead into the FBI, which is a position I have always wanted (although I am not holding my breath)! I will also be looking into positions at the BCA. I am applying for a community relations specialist/crime analyst position that I am really excited about…it combines three of my passions: crime, educating, and public speaking!

I am really excited about the future. I have a lot of soul searching and research to do. What ever I end up doing, I want to be the best of the best. Mediocrity is not for me. I don’t know what the future holds. What I do know is:

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6 comments on “My Big Decision

  • Congratulations to you! I know that sounds strange since you are walking away from what you believed in “doing” for so long. But, really CONGRATULATIONS – YOU TOOK THAT HUGE FIRST STEP IN THE LEAP OF FAITH and MAKING YOU HAPPY! I am so proud of you! You haven’t quit a thing, you’re choosing what’s best down a different path. Oh, how exciting it will be to see all that’s waiting for you in your future! Your future is full of anything, and everything you want it to be, just by believing! I BELIEVE IN YOU! With that, keep smiling my beautiful friend…YOU CAN DO ANYTHING!!!!!

    • Thank you Ann. Your post nearly made me cry. It’s not that I don’t want to be an attorney. I have had some really great moments, moments that nearly had me in tears because a client was so happy, and I was a part of that. So I will miss that and hope that at some point in the future I will have those opportunities again. I do need to remind myself that there is nobody better than me, nor smarter than me, they just believe in themselves more! I NEED TO START BELIEVING IN ME, AND KNOW THAT I CAN BE, DO, OR HAVE WHATEVER I WANT AS LONG AS I AM WILLING TO WORK HARD FOR IT! Thank you Ann!

  • Jasmine, I have never actually met you in person. But I think I would really like you. I think you are a strong and smart woman. I know good things will open up for you. And I believe you can choose happiness wherever you take your life.

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