After much deliberation I have decided to end my law practice as a solo practitioner. This does not mean that I no longer want to be an attorney, just not a solo attorney. I have been struggling with this over the last year, and the decision is bittersweet. It makes me a little sad because I am giving up the one thing that was truly mine. At the same time, I feel that a huge weight has been lifted off me now that a decision has been made. I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I ended up where I needed to be. I am excited about the future, the possibilities and potential that it holds.
I don’t know what the future holds. I do know that I want to be doing something that gets me so fired up that I can’t wait to jump out of bed in the morning, excited to take on the day. Although I have not given up on being a practicing attorney, I think I have finally come to terms with the fact that it is okay if I am not a practicing attorney. A law degree can take you in so many directions. I think I have been holding myself back by believing the preconceived notion that if I wasn’t a practicing attorney then law school was a waste. I also felt like I would be letting everyone down who believed in me. Somehow at 3:00 a.m. this morning I realized the only person I need to worry about is me. AM I HAPPY? I wasn’t happy, and as soon as I made that decision I was excited and happy. Excited that I could finally move on, and find my true passion and place in this world. Happy that I could let go, and know that it would be okay, that I am not a failure.
I am excited to spend some time revamping my resume, and then showing the world what they have been missing! I have been thinking of possibly becoming POST certified as my undergraduate degree is a B.A. in Criminal Justice…I wanted to be a police officer. I have a potential lead into the FBI, which is a position I have always wanted (although I am not holding my breath)! I will also be looking into positions at the BCA. I am applying for a community relations specialist/crime analyst position that I am really excited about…it combines three of my passions: crime, educating, and public speaking!
I am really excited about the future. I have a lot of soul searching and research to do. What ever I end up doing, I want to be the best of the best. Mediocrity is not for me. I don’t know what the future holds. What I do know is: