This love affair of mine has been going on for as long as I can remember, and I don’t foresee it ending anytime soon. It makes me happy, it makes me smile, and it makes me feel good (but this feeling is usually short-lived). I know that this love affair is wrong, it goes against everything I am trying to accomplish, but I can’t help myself. As much as others tell me it is bad for me, and I need to end it, I can’t. It won’t end until I am ready, regardless of what others think or say, regardless of whether it is right or wrong. It honestly sometimes makes me sick to my stomach, but I still can’t end it.
I wish I could say this love affair was with a gorgeous man, but unfortunately I am still looking for him. My love affair is with sugar, especially candy! A friend of mine has told me that I have an emotional attachment to sugar, I prefer to call it a love affair. I love candy, I love cookies, I love sweets!
I realize this love affair is a huge obstacle to me losing weight. As a challenge, I did give up sugar and starches for an entire month. During this time the weight came off really quick, but it wasn’t a realistic change for me. The one thing I can say about that month was that I felt AMAZING! When I cut out sugar, white flour, and starches I basically inadvertantly cut out gluten (for the most part). Quite honestly I felt the best I can ever remember feeling. The saddest part about that last statement is that wasn’t even enough to get me to stop eating sugar. The fact that I know I could feel the best that I have in my entire life if I quit eating sugar, and that is not enough for me to actually do it leads me to believe there probably is some emotional aspect to it. I have no idea what it might be, but awareness is the first step, right?
I have to come to terms with the fact that my weight loss will be slower than it could be if I gave up sugar, but I’m not ready to give up sugar. I like my mocha, my lattes, my candy, and my Christmas cookies! Maybe someday I will be ready, but not today. My real problem with candy is that I tend to be a binge eater. For instance, I had one of my favorite things tonight…Ghiradelli Peppermint Bark with Dark Chocolate. It’s one of those bars that has eight individual squares…instead of eating one or two squares, I ate the entire bar. For me, moderation has no meaning when it comes to sugar. This needs to be my new mantra:
Do you have a love affair with sugar? If so, any tips or tricks on how you deal with it?
I do have to say that my eating is better than it was two to three years ago, but there is a lot of room for improvement. I need to find a happy medium because life is too short to not enjoy the things you love!